... okay, 2009 is just absolutely NOT my year!! X.x ... actually, it's more been like the worst year of my life when you think about it O.o;; I've dealt with cancer and now that that finally is over, my body decides that it thinks I deserve to have herpes zoster (aka. 'helvedesild' or a reeeeeally bad rash) xD;; - it's the same virus that causes chicken pox and it's mostly only elderly people who gets attacked by it... you have three guesses as to how damn much it itches X.x AND it hurts too and will continue to do that for weeks, maybe months after the rash is gone... I'm actually having a hard time not to just laugh completely at everything - it's just soooo ridiculous!! xD when my doctor told me that it was herpes zoster that had spread on most of the right part of my upper body (boob, arm pit and shoulderblade) my first reaction was; ".... good thing I didn't get it while I was in chemo o.o;; That surely wouldn't have been fun!" ... and she just stared at me for a few seconds before she said she was impressed I took it so well... *sigh* I really don't want to be negative about stuff that's already hard enough to get through V.v it's actually quite simple xD;; but oh well, now I'm on some medicin and if it starts to hurt too much I've got some strong pain killers =w= it's not been that bad yet though O.o;; I'm actually a little surprised, because when I read about the rash on the net it sounds like it can make grown people cry xD;; and when my mother heard what it was she was all like "O____________O OH NO!!!" ..... so either do people complain a lot about nothing or I've gotten myself a pretty high pain tolerance >__>;;

As for recent random facts about my life:
- I just had a WOUNDERFUL week with my friends; thank you guys so much, I can't wait to see most of you to j-popcon in a few weeks and... well, I love you all very much ;O;
- Yassa will be visiting me next week and I'm TOTALLY looking forward to it!! QwQ
- I've gotten myself a small job; 12,5 hours a week n.n so now I make a little money, and it's nice... and it's a easy and good job, so that just makes it even better n.n (it's just cleaning at a school, and I'm actually getting money for more time than I spend there... no mater what I get payed for 2,5 hour each day, but I can finish in about 1-1,5 so I'm allowed to leavy by then xD it's awesome QwQ)
- My hair is growing longer and longer by the week!! n.n by now it has a length that most people think I could easily walk the streets with since it suits me... I'll probably wait a few month yet, 'cause I'm not feeling totally secure with it yet xD;; *shoot*
- I have a lot of smaller things to finish in the next few weeks, not enough to stress me, just enough, and it's nice to feel active again!! QwQ
- my arms still hurt, nothing new there =w=;;

Hmmm, I don't think there's anymore to say now xD;; I hope you're all doing well and be sure to not catch a cold now that the weather is changing a lot xD;;

No, it's not someone who died right now - it's about a friend who died two year ago. I'd like to writte it all down in details but my arms hurt so much that I have to take painkillers so I'll just this shortly.

Charlotte, I still think of you from time to time. You wheren't the closes of my friends, but I really wanted to get to know you better... You did so many things for me in a short time and I'm really bitter that I didn't get to do more for you. I'm not writing this to make others feel sorry for me, I'm completely fine, I'm just doing it to show you my respect and tell you that it'll be a long time before you'll be forgotten. The day I found out you died and had to tell others about it, was no kidding one of the darkest days in my life. If Tanja hadn't been there to figure everything out with me, I'm not sure what I would have done... you where a magnificient person, always putting others before yourself and it was so unfair that you had to be involved in that accident! I'm just glad that your last time here was one of the best times in your life, so you didn't have to leave with any worries (at least not what I knew of)... Thanks for what you did and for being a part of my life, even if it was just for a short amount of time....

R.I.P Charlotte.

Yearh I know, I haven't written anything about my birthday at all xD;; last week I turned 20 n.n I had a great day and got some awesome presents so thanks a LOT to everyone who congratulated me and gave me something!! n.n I love you guys ~


But YES, like the title says - today I had my last threatment!! QwQ the last ray threatment, and the last threatment AT ALL!!!!!!! Now I only need to be scanned in a few weeks and then they'll hopefully tell me that I've been cured of my cancer nwn So my aunt invited me to some dinner, my brother bought me a cake and I had a nice evening with my family, enjoying an awesome movie and eating icecream
I could probably write a lot more but I won't since I'm really tired right now T_T I really wanna sleep... *goes to bed*

and I spend last week in a holiday cottage and had a lot of fun xD we both brought our Code Geass school uniforms and we made a photoshoot near the ocean... and this video xD we had soooo much fun and well, I guess you can see it in the video... if you try reaaaally hard (not).

I dare EVERYONE to take a look at it (I double dare you), but it's in danish - the actual video has subtitles though (because regeeta is awesome ), the bloopers dosn't... If you like like Code Geass - watch if. If you speak Danish - watch it >xD
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as Lelouch (the dark uniform)
as C.C (green hair)

.:GENKI-CON:.
Yes, yesterday I just got home from a brilliant week in KBH T_T I had so much fun with my friends, helped one with her exam (it was nice to re-read some pensum xD;; ) and got a lot of nice stuff from Japan because one of them had been on vacation there QwQ it all ended with Genki con this weekend and I had so much fun... I got to see all my important friends for long or short time, but I saw them :3 I got to try out my newest cosplay (Kallen from Code Geass) and got some nice and awesoem pictures (I think).... some of the pictures I took and some of the videos as well, will be uploaded once I feel fine again n.n;;

Which leads us to the OTHER subject =

.:CHEMO:.
Today I got my VERY LAST CHEMO THREAMENT!!!!!! T____T I'm just so extremely happy... or that's kinda a lie, I feel pretty sick (like always) but it's so nice to know that once I get better this time, I don't have to go around and think about that I'll soon have to feel the same way again X.x that feeling is just indescribable and I don't plan on EVER having to feel like that or to have to go through something like that again ;O; and I don't hope that you'll have to either... in a few weeks my ray-threaments starts, but I'm not really scared of that... they say that there practically won't be any side effects, I might get a little irritated in the throat but that's all, and that much I can bear n.n;; only probalem is that we have to use around 3 hours each day, five days a week for... three weeks or so, I haven't been told for sure yet. That's pretty much T_T so it's not easy for me to plan anything.... :fail: but THEN I'm finished!!! xD


.:LOST LOVE CONTEST:.
Well, I'm hosting a contest for my online yaoi story 'Lost Love'. For those who don't know, yaoi means BL/Boy love/ or guy on guy sex... I actually started it to find out just HOW MUCH I would be able to write (because I like to challange myself xD;; ) and it turned out to be pretty much... xD; ANd it also turned out to be pretty popular so I though "sure, why not continue it?" and now it has evolved into this incredible complicated love-romance-angst story I myself am pretty proud of... and because it soon will have it's 1 year anniversary, I'm hosting this contest.
In short there's three categories: drawing, writing and 'any-thing-else' (cosplay, poetry, comic whatever). And the theme will be <k>Costumes</k>. Write about a schoolplay where they have to wear costumes, force the main char into a maid outfit or whatever. Use which characters from the story as you wish, in the scenes you wish, as long as it in some way includes the theme, costumes :3
You can find more info in here, together with the story; [link]

.:YARI-CON:.
Just a little promo for the yaoi/yuri-convetion that , I and sevaral others are trying to get on the legs in Odense for next summer. Please take a look at the webpage eventhough there aren't much in there yet :S [link] Any kind of support will be appriciated!!! n.n